Weakening Faith.

N.B.Cardoso

Sometimes we have things that comes to us and it shakes us out of the center. That place where we are in unity with the Universe and God inside ourselves. I believe we all go through those moments . Moments when we second guess our luck, our blessings, our actions, our thoughts and most importantly: our Faith.

When someone have the desire to help someone else they find solutions, they carve time, they find ways to do things even when all seems against it. When they don’t, everything possible and imaginable becomes an obstacle and, I believe, they expect their actions, lies and excuses will be unnoticed by the other person who asked for help and support. That is the lesson I am learning as I move forward in life. Some people are all about ‘What is in for them’. Those are, without a doubt in my mind, when my balance lose its grip and wobble out of its axle from one side to another.

But then, sitting here on my couch, on this cold New England morning, writing this blog before the distractions of the day comes my way, sipping on cup of hot Jasmine tea I  think….In this specific situation that is happening in my life, I wonder, am I also looking for ‘what is in for me’ too? I am no Saint, and I know it!

Sure, there are times I do things because my heart desires it. I know I do them for the simple joy of giving and helping others, but, if I am honest with myself, I also know I do things because I too expect something in return…so, I am not too different from the people who find excuses, who lie, who expect no one will notice the hidden reasons for my actions…I am just on the other side now, I am on the receiving end and it feels unfair and annoying that I am not getting what I expected I would get.

Learning to control the ego and stopping its rising voice when things don’t go as I expected is a daily lesson. Learning to understand my own reactions to negative experiences and not losing the faith in the wisdom of God inside us, is a minute to minute lesson.

Why do we fear and doubt the power and wonder of the Universe? We all know, in some level, that its power  is stronger and wiser than anything else we have ever experienced, so why do we allow those little things shake us from the place of peace and harmony we were meant to be with the Universe?

Well, I too know the answer for that:  Because we are humans and as such we are weak. Because we move our eyes from the goal and let those little, insignificant distractions take the best of us. Because our ego, even thought it might be somewhat under control for some of us, still has a voice that echoes, if we allow it to do so.

When those moments of weakness comes along, be either caused by fear of the unknown, disappointments with people we’ve trusted or simply for things not happening as we expected they would, those are also the moments in  life, when we must grasp even stronger to the Faith we have and, even if we cannot see the big picture right now, trust that God is watching over us, and will guide us, unfolding the events of the Universe in the best manner possible while we rest on the safety of His hands. Have a blessed day! Namaste.